The Ruthless Mind

A night in Korea.

2009-01-28T22:07:00.002+08:00

Life is never really fair.

Anyway, was not feeling the best of moods today. was feeling a little unwell too, boy that combination totally sucked. Moreover I am hobbling around like an old man with rheumatism, with my hip still injured with I don't know what the F*** is that. Bloody painful, seeing the sinseh this coming saturday morning. Meanwhile the CNY cookies are being stored in my every growing tummy. Can't gym properly, as I painfully found out.

Okay, I am so lagging behind on my workload. Seriously like tons and tons behind the list of work to be completed. Argh, that totally sucked. Shit.

Moreover, my driving is being pushed back by a month, my of it being my fault. Because of bad planning.

Away with the negatives, here is a piece of new that bring out both sides of my emotions. My dear korean friend, the one I knew from Cedar who went to Nyjc then to Ajc, now is in Korea for good. Oh well, at one point of them, she is the one who is there always, and me there for her.

I kinda miss her.

2009-01-19T14:08:00.002+08:00

I am going back to Rugby.

Yes I am.
But this time, I am going to play smart, not try and kill my shoulder again.
This time, I am going to get really fit.
Watch me.

Freaking 1 in the morning on the eve of CNY, and I don't feel a tingle of sleepiness.
Well, not asleep in the early morning listening to songs that reminds you of.., well it is not the best remedy for those who do not desire to think so much.

Anyway, I cannot bring myself to talk to her, ever since well we stopped talking. Many tell me to walk away from it, taking it as an experience to forget. What can I say? Oh well..

School have and will always be a burden to undergo, but still, least I am studying some. Well, Bye Bye Local University, hello private uni. Sucks ain't it.

Oh well. Maybe it is not just my time yet.

Not my time yet.

Brain-Freeze From a cup of coffee. Oh come on, ICE COFFEE!!

2009-01-11T21:52:00.003+08:00

Words complicates things, doesn't it?

By the looks of it, it seems like people do still read my blog, ah well, pretty surprising. Thought this thing was dead long ago, so generally people would ignore it. But woah, it is still being read.

Several things came to my mind, like I recently heard the song Disenchented by MyChemicalRomance, and the first person that came to my mind was a certain girl i knew sometime back, the girl which my bad habit of pangsei-ing took a full effect on her. Ouch, I know, I can be a bastard sometimes, I know, I know, my bad. Well, wondering how is she now.
Hello there Gen, its been a while.

I hate being one of those losers that actually sit in a corner and drink, thinking about things that could have been, and things that shouldn't. But nowadays, it happens and err.. (without the alcohol)

Lets me be a little frank here, Xinying this one is for you. Well, you and I can say whatever really, but well, I still like you (yeah, finding my sentimental side here) and if waiting and changing will work, then that is what I shall be. Ignore the rest of that I have done, lets start all over again. As friends, which apparently we skipped that step too quickly. If you read this, drop me a text, a call, tag.. anything. Yeah.. thanks..

Anyway, I hate that aspect of life which screws my mind up. later fellas.

TO her.

2009-01-10T20:59:00.005+08:00

Recently I went for a crash course on a relationship or whatever it is called.
From the start to the end, it was completed in 60 days.
Wonderful girl i happen to date, but our differences are way too much.
Thought she was the special one, but guess it was not meant to be.
Point is, I had my most interesting 60 days ever.
Hope you enjoyed your holiday, because I do.
Thanks for that 60 days.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3.
Part 1, It started out with loads of fun.
Knowing each other was easily being done.

Part 2, liked you like hell, acted like a fool.
Kept thinking of your smile, making my mind go dizzy.

Part 3, things go wrong too fast and quickly.
Not meant to be, guess I gotta let it be.

Broken Strings-James Morrison

2009-01-08T09:22:00.003+08:00

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrueI can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to saveI
t's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

It may be sheer coincidence, but still, i felt something.